WHAT IF?

I have thought a thousand times of the what ifs in my life.
What if I did not do this?
What if I stayed here?
What if I did not go with her?
What if I did not go with him?
What if I chose to ditch him?
What if I died?
There’s a lot of what ifs that will never be answered and never will be given explanations.
Only we can.
And only we are the ones who can stop.
The ones who can stop the questions.
The ones who can stop the worrying.
I hope I can stop mine.
I hope I can discover the answers right there and then.
It’s not healthy anymore.
All the thinking and the worrying.
All the nerve-wracking unanswered questions.
I feel like I am drowning.
I feel like I am out of air.
I need help.
Just please…
Someone help me.